28042012
SATURDAY
02:57
STREET 81
3 YEARS ON.
people always say time heals all wounds. i guess it's either crap, or i haven't had enough time yet.
it's been three years and five months since we last talked. everything in both our lives has changed. we're both in different polytechnics and working different jobs. we both grew up, it seemed.
so I told myself that i'm completely over you, that nothing you would ever do or say affect me. that you were a stranger and you were bad for my life. i chanted that util i believed it. or at least i thought i did.
Guess what? when i saw you again; when you said hello and smiled, my heart hurt. because i stopped guarding my heart, it pained in reflex to you. In fact, it still hurts so much right now i can still feel it. after fooling myself for so long, you just tore down those walls today without even trying.
those old songs still bring tears to my eyes: the songs we listened to together and the songs i listened to when we broke up. i still feel so raw and helpless.
i figure three years just wasn't enough for me.
i guess after this, i will keep telling myself the same old lie, and bury my feelings again. i guess i just cross my fingers and hope you don't appear when i'm unguarded again.i guess i'll just listen to those songs alone to heal again.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
