31012011
MONDAY
12:34
STREET 81
MISS MISSING YOU.
now i know what it feels like to see rain everyday, every time i look out of the window. but at least it hasn't risen to a metre or two.
but it may, going at this rate.
in a fix on whether i should turn up for the company BBQ in this forsaken weather, but if i do, i'm guessing i'll just have to leave early. oh and my shift got cancelled, too little people i guess.
this week has given me many lessons. i feel like i've gone through my own personal encounter, but lost a few years off my life. not that i want to; i already feel like i'm too old already.
started writing for fun again, and i feel rusty since all my ideas seem cliché. but i guess with a little bit of practice, i'll get it all back.
another snack till i get back:
because God created you to worship Him.
do not think that you are nothing,
because God created you to dwell with Him.
do not think that you are flawed,
because God created you to be whole in Him.
do not think you are weak,
you are braver than you think,
because God created you to fight battles with Him.
if you should ever doubt any of these things about yourself,
then remember,
God of the heavens,
God of the rain,
God of the oceans,
God of the sun and the moon,
God of love, peace and joy,
that very same God is God over you.
You will find all your answers in Him.
oh and one more thing before i go, the new song is Aerosmith - I Don't Want to Miss a Thing. have a nice Monday people.
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
we are not the gods.
we cannot predict what will happen.
we are not the gods.
we are more vulnerable and helpless than we realise.
we are not the gods.
we do not have all the answers.
we are not the gods.
i am not a god.
i am useless and weak; prone to anger, sadness and pain;
i am but a broken body with a mind of sorts.
but i know a God.
He know what will happen, and plans for our good.
i know a God.
He is omnipotent and omnipresent.
i know a God.
He has the answers i am waiting for.
i know my God, in my time of need will help me like He helps David.
He will listen to my laments and keep me safe.
i know my God, in my time of struggle will reassure me like He told Gideon.
He will show me signs and wonders; and settle my heart.
i know my God, in my time of anguish will give me joy like He gave Mary.
He will tell me wonderful news, and a beautiful ending.
My God is able, He is just, He is love, and He is wonderful.
He will carry us all.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
25012011
WEDNESDAY
19:05
STREET 81
WE'LL BE ALRIGHT.
We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we don’t sleep
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright
Tonight you won’t be by your self-self
Just leave your problems on the shelf-shelf
You won’t wanna be nowhere else-else
So let’s go, so let’s go (we got the club like)
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) and all the girls sayin’
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) the whole world sayin’
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) yeah, yeah, come on let’s
Get drunk, toast it up, we don’t give a fu—
We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we don’t sleep
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright
Throw our hands in the air
Pretty girls everywhere
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) alright, alright, alright
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) ah, ah, ah, ah
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) alright, alright, alright
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) ah, ah, ah, ah
We walk the streets like we don’t care-care
Our middle fingers in the air-air
So come and join us if you dare-dare
Yeah let’s go, yeah let’s go (we got the club like)
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) and all the girls sayin’
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) the whole world sayin’
(hoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo) yeah, yeah, come on let’s
Get drunk, toast it up, we don’t give a fu—
We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we don’t sleep
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright
Throw our hands in the air
Pretty girls everywhere
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright
It feels like, ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(It feels good, don’t it?) ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(yo, yo, yeah, d-don’t it?) yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(yeah) We’ll be alright (ahh!)
It feels like, ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(It feels good, don’t it?) ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah
(yo, yo, yeah, d-don’t it?) yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
(yeah) We’ll be alright (uh-huh, ha-ha)
We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we don’t sleep
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright
Throw our hands in the air
(ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah)
Pretty girls everywhere
(ahh-ah-ah-ah-ah)
Got our friends, got the night
(yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
We’ll be alright
yeahhhh. nice song, once again, excuse the language. it's just something to apologise for two emo posts, but my friends, i am alright too.
EVERYBODY! my photos from my little "nature walk" is up, and here it is, my awesomes.Deviant art.
my chinatown pictures up also: facebook's okay, right?
:)
hmm, week two at work, and the posting results for 2010 Sec 4 is 26 Jan 8am. don't feel nervous, if you really are, just listen to music (like click play on my playlist!) or do whatever you do to unwind. remember, you'll make it! you'll BE ALRIGHT! :D if i feel really stressed i just pray, usually works. or i take photos. suit yourself.
just remember, God makes no mistakes, it'll be okay in the end.
hmm new song thinking in progress, should be about o-levels or something. haha i know i'm kinda late for that.
but just check it out, the first verse and chorus to I miss everything about you - Carrie Underwood. this one is called {Carried}
*first try at changing lyrics, God bless this song.*try it out, listen to Carrie's song and tell me if it fits :)
I was so stressed out
I couldn't sleep at night
I start to lose my way
Like there's no sunrise
my confidence was gone
this can't be happening
But then i cried out
"Lord I'm desperate;
Lord, i really need you;
come and rescue me!"
And now,
I know that i have been set free
thank you Lord for carrying me through
And after all the things I've been through
I will trust everything to you
Only you*
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
23012011
SUNDAY
21:48
STREET 81
FEELS TOO REAL TO BE AWAKE.
been feeling P!nk's songs lately, i don't know why.
just emotional i guess.
made a wrong turn.. once or twiceexcuse the language.
dug my way out, blood and fire
bad decisions thats alright
welcome to my silly life
miss treated
miss-placed misundastood
miss knowing its all good
it didnt slow me down
miss taken
always hackin' guessing
under estimated
look im still around
pretty pretty please
dont you ever ever feel
like your less than
fucking Perfect
pretty pretty please
if you ever ever feel like your nothing
your fucking perfect to me...
your so mean (your so mean), when you talk about
yourself
you were wrong
change the voices in your head
make them like you instead
so complicated, look how we're makin'
filled with so much hatered, such a tired game
it's enough ive done all i can think of
chased out all my demons, ive seen you do the same
pretty pretty please
dont you ever ever feel
like your less than
fucking perfect
pretty pretty please
if you ever ever feel like your nothing
your fucking perfect to me...
the whole worlds scared so i swollow the fear
the only thing i shoul dbe drinkin' is an ice cold beer
so cool, in line and we try try try
but we try to hard, its a waste of my time
done looking for the critics 'cuz they're everywhere
they don't like my jeans they don't get my hair
change ourselves yeah we do it all the time, why do we
do that' why do i do that' (why do i do that')
pretty pretty please
dont you ever ever feel
like your less than
fucking perfect
pretty pretty please
if you ever ever feel like your nothing
your fucking perfect to me...
your perfect your perfect
pretty pretty please
if you ever ever feel like your nothing
your fucking perfect to me...
my cellies asked me to put the cell song up again, here it is at least for another week.
now, i really want my own room. four adults in a master bedroom is really getting too small, people are always frustrated at each other. every little thing you do affects 3 people, even flushing the toilet at night can wake up the whole room. i try to keep to myself, but i have limits too, and i'm already there. please, it's been a year. even if i sleep in the living room (which is disallowed) i'll be VERY HAPPY. i'm getting to the desperate stage i guess.
thinking about it, i love camping, encounters and kelong because i have a bed to myself without my family. well, at least a sleeping bag or table.
but nothing can change until my degree. which i will get. definitely overseas. and at least 3 hours flight away, with a exchange rate of 1.25 or something. then i will know what alone is.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
21012011
FRIDAY
21:56
STREET 81
BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR.
- Hey Mitchel Musso
i don't know, things aren't going so well this week.
at least I'm honest I'm not too happy.
walked from TMFT to Bedok Reservoir today, after work to take pictures. lesser pictures than a usual cell group, but i felt i had some good ones i just need to crop and adjust.
morning shift does let you learn more, but i realised that people treat you as invisible unless you speak up for yourself.
Saturday's cell outing also cancelled, really looked forward to it. but i guess i can stay for the whole day in Chinatown. this time I'm bringing my computer, two camera cards and my phone charger too. and no, I'm not going to appear in Cantonment. not on my life.
i need to visit the sushi shop before CNY too, to give them the cashew nuts. goodness, this blog is now sounding like my Saturday's "to-do" list.
if what I'm saying is senseless today, forgive me.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
19012011
WEDNESDAY
00:49
STREET 81
PERMANENT REPEATS.
everybody, the Lunar New Year is coming right up. that's good news for a few reasons. if you really must know, these reasons are ranked by importance and significance (to me at least) .
ONE, the photography "season of wits" is here. this is one of the most prominent festivals in Singapore, and one of the most widely celebrated too. two years ago on this very same week, my photography mentor took me to Chinatown and made his class take pictures of anything interesting about the festival. what we came out with surprised even us. thus it successfully knocked into my mind the importance of taking advantage of any procession or wide-spread celebration to make the most of my creativity.
however, that meant i was also "rudely" thrust into the community of more professional photographers; whom boasting wide-angled lens, filters, stands and gel packs (if you know what i mean, you must be one of us); left me feeling so small and poor in this expensive hobby. but i guess that would be a small price to pay for this annual luxury. :)
oh and this time last year:
i really want to get a proper recognition in photography, have decided to enter all the competitions on my own this year. TJS my mentor has OFFICIALLY RETIRED, as he feels he has taught me everything i need to know, and all he can do is sit and watch me play with colour. and the occasional criticism. ha ha. but it will be a whole new level of photography, one on my own feet, independently finding shoot areas, and angles, the models, the way i perceive things. i need to be unique, and stand with my own style to be able to capture my passion for the art. NOT EASY(!!!) will do my bestest to meet ur hopes. :) happy world tour!
TWO, I'm working.
of course it's bad news, i hear you moan. no, it's good. now, i can actually feel, for once, what the people on duty during big festivals feel. it may not be pleasant, but at least i can learn to avoid it next time. ;)
THREE, change has really happened, and i want to be one of the firsts to document it. this time last year:
tried to drag myself early to school, because it's MINYI'S birthday today. so happy birthday~ ya, and i took a cab to school so i can be on time! yeah, i barely made it on time before soon tried to close the gates.like 30
seconds early. so... I'm in school, i sit in class and i somehow made it to end of assembly.
yes, these flashbacks are the exact dates of each event.
that's about what i need to say today, if you're going to Chinatown around 7am (you shouldn't, really!) , and you see a little girls snapping pictures furiously with her semi-DSLR, go up and say hi. perhaps you could be a part of those pictures; you never know.
good night, my friends.
Labels: and i did it., i will love again, if you remember the next quote click it, whether or not its you.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
16012011
SUNDAY
22:10
STREET 81
GREAT WORK IN PROGRESS.
i feel offended.
if you didn't already know, a lot of drafts go into one post, and i screen the whole post, and if i put lyrics, i try and get the song up too. i think about what i post at least a day before, and i use proper, coherent English, proper paragraphing and proper punctuation as much as possible.
so why do people say these things are useless, mindless ramblings? that these things are random crap or something? maybe it shouldn't get to me like this, but somehow... it does.
back to cheerier things. new photos up on Deviant Art
, go check them out, entirely new and fresh.
another piece of juicy news to share, i got press pass as an Official Chingay Photographer, happy me. gonna bring two cameras, one company and one personal. by the way, i'm actually volunteering with Welcome The World, check out their facebook page and website, they're a cool bunch and you can volunteer too. basically it's like any publication, you're treated like real reporters. means you're on par with Straits Times writer and video crew.
last thing, i'm working starting tomorrow, so i may not post as often. but i may, like last year, post notes. that said, watch out for the album, it's going to be ready on my birthday! total of 17 songs, 17 birthday you see.
name of album? well, any suggestions? i was thinking !7 - God be the Glory. but i think it's too cheesy. hmm.
Labels: Childlike faith
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
We move through our time on this earth doing a million and ten things, with a thousand and one goals, and tens of hundreds of to-do lists. But in our minds are bigger thoughts: I want to turn my kids into good people, I want to leave the world a little better than I found it, I want to touch someone’s life. And often - in the cosmic humor that surrounds us – we raise amazing people, make things better, touch people in amazing ways but don’t know, or never see.
the chat with Kristin made me see things in a broader perspective, even if it were on seemingly unattainable to me. i also realized one thing - i am not alone in my despair and poverty. Neither am i alone in my faith and hope.
i will learn to be patient.
The emblem of suffering and shame;
And I love that old cross where the dearest and best
For a world of lost sinners was slain.
So I’ll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.
O that old rugged cross, so despised by the world,
Has a wondrous attraction for me;
For the dear Lamb of God left His glory above
To bear it to dark Calvary.
In that old rugged cross, stained with blood so divine,
A wondrous beauty I see,
For ’twas on that old cross Jesus suffered and died,
To pardon and sanctify me.
To the old rugged cross I will ever be true;
Its shame and reproach gladly bear;
Then He’ll call me some day to my home far away,
Where His glory forever I’ll share.
dear God,
i know sometimes troubles are there
for us to grow stronger and learn to rely on u
help us to remain strong in our faith like Job
cure us of our unbelief
and help us to grow and prosper in our belief
give us strength
and hope for the problems we may face
no matter how small
thanks for everything you have already given us
and help us to also be grateful.
in Jesus name, amen
dear jesus, i pray tt u will hv lordship over everything in our lives, no matter how small our faith is, will u grow tt faith in our hearts so that our worries will look so small and our confidence in u will burgeon!
in jesus name i pray, AMEN!
GET THIS PICTURE AT deviant art
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♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
09012011
SUNDAY
14:19
STREET 81
GRACE IS ENOUGH.
first post of the year, whoopee.
so many things have happened this week. church event, onions gathering, reconnecting with past colleagues and friends.
got a new camera too, so now i have a load of pictures to upload and edit.
learning guitar and what else to play my own songs, really hope to edit and record my songs. doing a couple covers, and i'm going to put them up on iTunes for people to download for free :)
results for "O" levels are released tomorrow, really nervous. but i'm sure it's gonna be fine, the courses i aim for are all within reach.
not much to say, except that i'm gonna be very busy for a long time.
oh, and let's get rich people.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
