THURSDAY
15032012
03:34
STREET 81
FLUSTER.
I know I haven't posted in a long time.
there's so many things o post about, so many things i haven't dealt with. i don't trust my mind and heart to do what's right any more, because sometimes i doubt myself too. i have been crying out in desperation to feel or see something, but i am blinded by fear and disillusion.
i stopped taking photos since the accident. i stopped jay-walking. i tell people to drive safe whenever they drop me off, even taxi uncles. i cannot bear to stay home, yet I'm unable to stay out. i feel guilty and responsible. i feel so old and tired.
today evening before work i walked a long way to the hotel to think about things. I've never liked being surrounded by people, and orchard road is one of my nightmares. so i walked all the quiet back alleys and staff entrances of places i knew, and it was a peaceful and calming thing. then i suddenly had a clear answer from God. i felt i had to stop and process what He said to me. for once everything became clear and made sense.
He told me to trust and obey, for there's no other way to be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey. from the little Children's hymn i used to sing in primary school. i was stuck in my head even as i worked, and it was really comforting.
When we walk with the Lord in the light of His Word,
What a glory He sheds on our way!
While we do His good will, He abides with us still,
And with all who will trust and obey.
Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.
Not a shadow can rise, not a cloud in the skies,
But His smile quickly drives it away;
Not a doubt or a fear, not a sigh or a tear,
Can abide while we trust and obey.
Chorus
Not a burden we bear, not a sorrow we share,
But our toil He doth richly repay;
Not a grief or a loss, not a frown or a cross,
But is blessed if we trust and obey.
Chorus
But we never can prove the delights of His love
Until all on the altar we lay;
For the favour He shows, for the joy He bestows,
Are for them who will trust and obey.
Chorus
Then in fellowship sweet we will sit at His feet.
Or we’ll walk by His side in the way.
What He says we will do, where He sends we will go;
Never fear, only trust and obey.
Chorus
Luke 11: 9-13
"So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
"Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!"
Philippians 4: 6-7
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Romans 4:20-21
"Yet, with respect to the promise of God, he did not waver in unbelief but grew strong in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully assured that what God had promised, He was able also to perform."
Psalm 18:30
"As for God, His way is blameless; the word of the LORD is tried; He is a shield to all who take refuge in Him."
Genesis 28:15
"Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you."
1 Kings 8:56
"Blessed be the LORD, who has given rest to His people Israel, according to all that He promised; not one word has failed of all His good promise, which He promised through Moses His servant."
Psalm 36:5
"Your loving kindness, O LORD, extends to the heavens, Your faithfulness reaches to the skies."
Psalm 42:11
"Why are you in despair, O my soul? And why have you become disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him, the help of my countenance and my God."
Psalm 31:24
"Be strong and let your heart take courage, all you who hope in the LORD."
Psalm 71:5
"For You are my hope; O Lord GOD, You are my confidence from my youth."
Philippians 4:19
"My God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus."
John 16:23-24
"In that day you will not question Me about anything. Truly, truly, I say to you, if you ask the Father for anything in My name, He will give it to you. Until now you have asked for nothing in My name; ask and you will receive, so that your joy may be made full."
Matthew 21:22
"All things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive."
Psalms 27:10
"For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the LORD will take me up."
Romans 8:28
"And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."
Isaiah 41:10
"Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
Psalm 138:7
"Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me; You will stretch forth Your hand against the wrath of my enemies, And Your right hand will save me."
John 14:1
"Do not let your heart be troubled; believe in God, believe also in Me."
John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful."
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
