06112011
SUNDAY
01:51
STREET 81
CLARITY.
the night always brings some clarity that the busy day eclipses.
my new psp in coming in 3 days!!!
*commence countdown with drum roll*
this week has been a fulfilling week: revision, school, friends, flag day, painted my nails purple, made some money, did some ushering. slow week that got faster and more packed as it went, but it's been a fine one.
feeling really blessed and ministered through doing devotions this week. i thought God would just give me a verse and a sweet short something to sms out, and it'll be like a daily kinda thing. i didn't expect what i would get. every time i asked God for a word, he gives me a sermon of His thoughts. i have long smses that i try to shorten. it's really amazing how everything reaches a clarity and coherence when He speaks to your heart. through the daily devotions, he has convicted me of many things in my life i need to be aware of, and He really gives me joy.
since the start of the second semester, people who i don't know personally keep asking me whether i have a boyfriend. when i reply that i want to focus on studying now and be a student, they all say that life is about having fun and getting to know people. when i say that comes later in life, they say i'm chicken.
well, yeah, i think that life is about fun, and getting to know people. BUT, life is not about being immature, and playing around with people's feelings. Any relationship should begin with an end in mind: marriage. i don't want to stumble around and hurt, then realize that's not the way it should be. been there, not going back again.
i've had enough of people not being serious with relationships. for Pete's sake, it's love and emotion we're talking about! not the latest iPhone or your crush of the month. it's someone's soul and heart. that person is just like you. if someone wasn't ready / serious / didn't want to lose out, and played you intentionally/unintentionally, you know you'll want to rip that person's guts out. so will the person you play your love games with.
call me chicken. call me insecure or scared. i know i'm not ready, and i'm not looking for one right now. you have a right to your own heart, so if you think you are ready and mature enough, i wish you happiness and blessing in all your relationships, and that you find true and real joy. and if you know you're not ready, i beg you not to hurt another fellow human being. please.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
