23072011
SATURDAY
12:46
STREET 81
LEAVING.
[CHORUS]
My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note
Make me your radio (Yeah)
And turn me up when you feel low (Turn it up a little bit)
This melody was meant for you (Right there)
Just sing along to my stereo
[VERSE 1]
Gym Class Heroes baby!
If I was just another dusty record on the shelf
Would you blow me off and play me like everybody else
If I asked you to scratch my back, could you manage that
Like it, re-yea, check it Travie, I can handle that
Furthermore, I apologize for any skipping tracks
It's just the last girl to play me left a couple cracks
I used to, used to, used to, used to, now I'm over that
Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts
If I could only find a note to make you understand
I'd sing it softly in your ear and grab you by the hands
Keep me stuck inside your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart's a stereo that only plays for you
[VERSE 2]
Let's go!
If I was an old school, fifty pound boom-box (Member them?)
Would you hold me on your shoulder wherever you walk
Would you turn my volume up in front of the cops (Turn it up)
And crank it higher every time they told you to stop
And all I ask is that you don't get mad at me (Mad at me)
When you have to purchase mad D batteries (Batteries)
Appreciate every mix tape your friends make (Friends make)
You never know we come and go like on the interstate (Never know)
I think finally found a note to make you understand
If you can hear this, sing along and take me by the hands
Keep my stuck inside your head like your favorite tune
You know my heart's a stereo that only plays for you
[Bridge]
I only pray you'll never leave me behind (Never leave me)
Because good music can be so hard to find (So hard to find)
I'll take your hand and hold it closer to mine (Yeah)
Thought love was dead but now you changed my mind (Yeah, yeah, come on, woo!)
had this talk with mum about my studies, boating and church. had this feeling like it was st john competitions time all over again, except that this time it had church in it too.
problem is, i have never felt so good about something like this. i mean, st john, yeah, i could manage that. but i couldn't think when i started st john i was going to last all four years with them; i somehow made it. in dragon boating, i can see us holding our first medals and cup together, i can see us screaming and crying together.
i see the DB warriors as one person together, not apart i guess - one that can survive and prove the world wrong.
then church. i mean, she doesn't go church regularly, why lecture me? i drag her Saturday nights even. but i love my cellies; i want to spend as much time as possible. i try to make everything work out, but i end up giving each only a fraction of my attention. both are demanding of my time and focus; i think of warriors when I'm in church and cellies when I'm rowing. i feel alien and apart from everyone; each person on the other side has only one life, and i try to live both.
This is not a ranting post, nor is it one of despair. the critics have not won. it just seems to get harder, but like i said, you cannot make me choose; only to a compromise. i can do only what one girl has to her best, and to the last of that best.
just needed to get things of my system, i was reminded of a verse i keep in my wallet:
kept seeing this verse throughout the week - nce during NYP open cell, once in an sms, and everyday i make an effort to pray with this verse before my day starts. so motivational. God speaks His consolation and peace in smaller and quieter than we ever imagine.Isaiah 40:31
"but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
