28072011
THURSDAY
03:33
STREET 81
CONFLICT.
I know you want to stay in bed
But it's light outside
It's light outside
So know I am going to stay right here
Because you saved my life once
You saved my life
And I would try to get you out
because it's beautiful outside
And we will fall
We will try
And do our best and I love you otherwise
Because you saved my life once
Because you saved my life once
I know you want to rest your head
and just forget the night
forget the night
So you know I am going to stay right here
And sit by your side
By your side
I think you always knew would be
I think you always knew would be
The greatest
Because you saved my life once
Because you saved my life once
so many people have talked about my boating; some for, some against. those that were for boating are the easiest to agree with cause they are the ones feeling it with me, doing what i do. those that are against - some are biased, most express concern. to tell you the truth, i joined it not for the muscles, or the strength, but because i really wanted to row. it's about the water; i love that feeling of the sun and the breeze with it. not cause I'll get all beefy and can punch real hard. it's just the side effects.
for the biased, i mean, have you even tried it? it's like saying studying sucks just cause it takes up your time, makes you tired and you haven't tired it. seriously, speak from experience, not from hearsay.
it's easier to judge is you've never been in that lifestyle; everyone knows that wards are free and generated by the dozen. the point is, the right to judge is reserved for those who know all of it, and do you truly? think then, before you take the liberty to do so.
I've always told mom: I'm saving up so i can start somewhere new. but that place won't be new if all I'm doing is running away from my own demons. what i really want, is somewhere where I'm completely new and on my own, to make my own person without all the judgement.
maybe 'll make it, maybe not, but that's for God to decide - not you, not me.
NEW PICS THERE.
SHARE THE LOVE.
PEACE. (Y)
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
26072011
TUESDAY
00:25
STREET 81
WILT.
talk to people. talk to them more. how?
i'm not good with speaking. i cannot delete what i say if i think it's worthless or harsh. i cannot perfect it; the beautiful on paper become raw and uncouth spoken.
talking reveals to another your own person, one you cannot hide even you choose your words.
The written language can be significantly more precise. Written words can be chosen with greater deliberation and thought, and a written argument can be extraordinarily sophisticated, intricate, and lengthy. These attributes of writing are possible because the pace of involvement is controlled by both the writer and the reader. The writer can write and rewrite at great length, a span of time which in some cases can be measured in years. Similarly, the reader can read quickly or slowly or even stop to think about what he or she has just read. More importantly, the reader always has the option of re-reading; even if that option is not exercised, its mere possibility has an effect upon a reader's understanding of a text. The written word appeals more to a contemplative, deliberative style.___________________________________________________________________~Differences Between Oral and Written Communication
Vincent Ferraro and Kathryn C. Palmer
Mount Holyoke College
South Hadley, MA 01075
Speaking and Arguing: The Rhetoric of Peace and War
life always hands us tough choices, they stink even when there's no wrong or right. life, sadly, is not all about you, and what you do ultimately affects many you influence.
priorities, priorities.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
23072011
SATURDAY
12:46
STREET 81
LEAVING.
[CHORUS]
My heart's a stereo
It beats for you, so listen close
Hear my thoughts in every note
Make me your radio (Yeah)
And turn me up when you feel low (Turn it up a little bit)
This melody was meant for you (Right there)
Just sing along to my stereo
[VERSE 1]
Gym Class Heroes baby!
If I was just another dusty record on the shelf
Would you blow me off and play me like everybody else
If I asked you to scratch my back, could you manage that
Like it, re-yea, check it Travie, I can handle that
Furthermore, I apologize for any skipping tracks
It's just the last girl to play me left a couple cracks
I used to, used to, used to, used to, now I'm over that
Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts
If I could only find a note to make you understand
I'd sing it softly in your ear and grab you by the hands
Keep me stuck inside your head, like your favorite tune
And know my heart's a stereo that only plays for you
[VERSE 2]
Let's go!
If I was an old school, fifty pound boom-box (Member them?)
Would you hold me on your shoulder wherever you walk
Would you turn my volume up in front of the cops (Turn it up)
And crank it higher every time they told you to stop
And all I ask is that you don't get mad at me (Mad at me)
When you have to purchase mad D batteries (Batteries)
Appreciate every mix tape your friends make (Friends make)
You never know we come and go like on the interstate (Never know)
I think finally found a note to make you understand
If you can hear this, sing along and take me by the hands
Keep my stuck inside your head like your favorite tune
You know my heart's a stereo that only plays for you
[Bridge]
I only pray you'll never leave me behind (Never leave me)
Because good music can be so hard to find (So hard to find)
I'll take your hand and hold it closer to mine (Yeah)
Thought love was dead but now you changed my mind (Yeah, yeah, come on, woo!)
had this talk with mum about my studies, boating and church. had this feeling like it was st john competitions time all over again, except that this time it had church in it too.
problem is, i have never felt so good about something like this. i mean, st john, yeah, i could manage that. but i couldn't think when i started st john i was going to last all four years with them; i somehow made it. in dragon boating, i can see us holding our first medals and cup together, i can see us screaming and crying together.
i see the DB warriors as one person together, not apart i guess - one that can survive and prove the world wrong.
then church. i mean, she doesn't go church regularly, why lecture me? i drag her Saturday nights even. but i love my cellies; i want to spend as much time as possible. i try to make everything work out, but i end up giving each only a fraction of my attention. both are demanding of my time and focus; i think of warriors when I'm in church and cellies when I'm rowing. i feel alien and apart from everyone; each person on the other side has only one life, and i try to live both.
This is not a ranting post, nor is it one of despair. the critics have not won. it just seems to get harder, but like i said, you cannot make me choose; only to a compromise. i can do only what one girl has to her best, and to the last of that best.
just needed to get things of my system, i was reminded of a verse i keep in my wallet:
kept seeing this verse throughout the week - nce during NYP open cell, once in an sms, and everyday i make an effort to pray with this verse before my day starts. so motivational. God speaks His consolation and peace in smaller and quieter than we ever imagine.Isaiah 40:31
"but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
19072011
TUESDAY
12:14
NYP HALL S2
HOUR OF CITY MAGIC.
If you try sitting at the esplanade for one hour, it's easy to fall into the rhythm of the city. There is music from the overhead speakers, the busy river traffic that lends to so many memories. The people around me in no particular hurry, lazy after their Sunday brunches. Giggles from the merriment of children fill the pauses of the noon music. Couples are aplenty, all whispering and leaning into each other. Parents bustle around their children, orbiting to shower their precious child with attention, forming a picture of kindred bliss. Tourists red with the humidity and sunburn flock here to the banks of the Singapore River, clicking furiously with their posh cameras and flamboyant poses. A live band begins to play; someone whistles a happy tune along to it.
Suddenly, the humdrum is broken by a single stray cloud. It dumps it huge store upon the merry scene, and as one the scene immediately changes. the bumboats rush madly to the docks, and passengers like ants scurry into the air-condition malls for shelter. The raindrops grow fatter, and their plump wetness soaks the hot afternoon to saturation.
Finally the brief shower ends. The buildings tower around the little pier, where the first of the sun's rays dance from the glossy, glassed sides, a dazzling display of gold and brilliance. They fall to the water surface, tainting each of the small waves' tips with that touch of natural magic.
ViSion was awesome, has all the looks of a global standard theatre performance, with that huge rush of giddying magic. really worth every minute and cent. it inspired this post, and i strongly encourage all to watch it!
finally not sick, only the fever is left, and only in the mornings. stupid virus going around the class. lots of them been down, largest suspect is Terrence for introducing this ailment.
new favourite spider:
SCIENTIFIC NAME
Latrodectus bishopi
SIZE
The average size of mature, female Red Widow spiders is approximately .5 inch, with a leg span of 1.5 to 2 inches. Mature, male Red Widow spiders are much smaller - approximately 1/3 the size of the female.
DESCRIPTION
The cephalothorax (head) and legs of Red Widow spiders are a rusty-reddish color. The abdomen is black, and generally has rows of red or orange dots, which are outlined in white or yellow. Red Widow spiders do not typically have the well-known hourglass marking on the underside of their abdomen, but instead have only one single red mark, which resembles a flattened triangle.
DISTRIBUTION
The Red Widow is only found in central and southern Florida. It is not known to exist outside of the United States.
HABITS
Nocturnal, only the female of the species will aggressively defend her web and territory. The male of the species is wandering, reconstructing a new web once very few days in a new area. mating and hunting habits are similar to the black widow family, with a powerful venom said to be stronger than the black widow, with a paralysing effect and spasms.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
12072011
TUESDAY
23:59
STREET 81
OHANA.
Ohana is a Hawaiian word meaning 'family, kin group, or extended family'.
i blog about things personal to me, because i think as humans we relate via our own experiences, and by doing so i hope all of us have strength to carry on together. sometimes they're lengthy, sometimes just a peek of something bigger. usually these are things that i think about before bed, or have taken up much in my life. if you read all the way, thanks for putting up with some really random happenings. if you don't, then it's all right.
in training, i guess this is true. we become stronger together, get to know one another well.
in church, it's evident on our easiness with each other, the comfortable jokes and how we are so ourselves it funny. they make every week worthwhile to last through, because i get to see them every weekend.
both are important, you can't make me choose.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
11072011
MONDAY
13:03
STREET 81
[CONCENTRATION.]
I tried pushing evolution
As the obvious conclusion of the start.
But it was for my own amusement
Saying love was an illusion of a hopeless heart.
Of all of the things that she's ever said
She goes and says something that knocks me dead.
You won't find faith or hope down a telescope
You won't find heart and soul in the stars
You can break everything down to chemicals
But you can't explain a love like ours.
this is one blog post i keep editing.
many things happen in one month. my life has taken an aeroplane of it's own, coming up with new and exciting things every weekend to surprise me. i'm a boiling pot of emotions wherever i go: happy, excited, stressed, tired. my life is tied so much to things beyond my control, that it has lead me to a different height and a while new perspective.
Nanyang is second among all the polytechnics, so close to the first. it was an eye-opening experience to feel our seniors highs and lows; to hear the screams and blood in your ears when you are in your own race. every drum beat calls for more power; the adrenalin is a powerful addictive drug. when your muscles feel like they have expended their all and your mind is hell bent on the finishing line. that not giving up, it's so alluring when i think back about the races. i guess even if i probably forget what actually happens, this feeling i'll still remember.
went for 4 Empathy gathering during Iris' birthday, good to see most of them again after so long. we look so different! i'm so tanned, certain people are as skinny / tall / beautiful / handsome / nonsensical as ever, but all of us have taken such diverse routes. some poly, so JC, but all still hanging in there. the CCAs we took are also quite surprising! Rongda is a cheerleader (i want to see him perform one day!), Vern is skating (expected this one); Nigel and i are both boaters. He has really slimmed and toned up much more. i imagine if both of did race, now we have equal chances of winning. he used to be this fat kid, but now he's much better. but the best is just to know that this bunch of people are still there even if we did move on in our lives. at one point of time in our lives we were stuck together and had the time of our lives together. i guess we will all remember that.
another important thing during this time is that the church is launching the 40-UP campaign. all the plans we are making in AnT cell has me hyped up and raring to go: the picnics, study sessions and meetings. i beleive we are in for a awesome and miraculous time together. Amen!
back on editing lately, sorry for dragging my photo releases. i promise to finish them as soon as i can, and i must learn to stop going for so many shoots and just edit finish my photos. beauty is to be shared not concealed, someone once said. so i'll share the beauty i see with you guys soon. but in the mean time here's a teaser to, obviously, tease you my supporters. cheerios B).
YOU ARE ONLY AS STRONG AS YOU BELIEVE TO BE.
Don't be an eagle among the chickens.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
01072011
FRIDAY
11:12
STREET 81
NERVOUS.
going to school in a couple hours to have dinner with fellow DB warriors. seems silly but hey, i got nothing on today, and home all day seems lazy.
tomorrow is our first ever race at Marina Barrage, first race ever really. tomorrow will test whether we are stronger in both mind and body. tomorrow will see whether we are one team in spirit. tomorrow is the day we will perform, even better than in our trainings. i believe in us.
okay, i just nervous about tomorrow. i remember a line from one of my teachers: Nervousness is the by product of having trained hard. it's the best friend of confidence, because you shouldn't be over confident either. today, go enjoy your nervousness as a sign you have put in effort, and wake up strong and ready.
shouldn't that be the case for everything? i guess it's just effort not to let the nervousness show.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
