28062011
TUESDAY
18:10
NYP DB CLUBROOM
STRENGTH.
strength to many is just about your physical capabilities: how much you can bench press or how may laps of the stadium you can run. true, strength does encompass that meaning, but joining dragon boat has led me to really look at strength and being strong differently.
I'm not the most fit of people. i think before i joined, I'm somewhat of a slob cause i only biked and ran really rarely. then i joined and all hell let loose on my muscles. the aches, for starters, but there was also a great feeling of accomplishment when you do TEN rounds around a track and still lift weights. correction, not great, but in a SUPERB AWESOME I-MADE-IT kind of way. that feeling was better than all the drills or science competitions I've ever won.
it's more about defeating yourself and that mindset, that you are stronger than you actually believe. that the stitch you think is going to kill you ends up a little thing in the sidelines of adrenalin. that the fat, sloppy you becomes more alert, disciplined and fit. man, i tell you that you only can try to believe you actually can do it.
when i think about strength, it reminds me of this old song i used to sing in primary school:
You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all
Taking my sin, my cross, my shame
Rising up again I bless Your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You pick me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
it's really hard balancing life with everything else. dragon boat is demanding (what else would you expect?) but i will make a way. or at least God will make one.
after joining dragon boat, i hear so many stories about people leaving church because both are time consuming and fight for attention. i don't believe you have to sacrifice your faith for your goal right? i know i may not look like the part (now), but no one started out buff. everyone trained, and gave up their time for it. i really want to make both worlds work, and i believe i can do it. if nobody has tried, how can they say it's not possible?
that said, i will try t strike a balance. because without faith I'm nothing too.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
21062011
TUESDAY
23:45
STREET 81
MORNING COLD.
i'm writing this while waiting a whole week for my glossy prints to come out.
the retreat at Changi was a interesting and comfortable one. it combined a few of the things i wanted to do, but it taught me many more important lessons about myself and my walk with God.
one thing it let me do was know my cellies a lot more. for the girls, we did reach a state of easiness with each other, which was soothing to know you will have such dependable friends in a changing world. they are so dear to me. for the guys, it was fun to learn new things about them and just hang out. it was a lot more people than cell group usually was, and it reminded me again why i love them so much.
another thing it let me do was visit Changi again. i haven't been back for about half a year, and i haven't got the time even then to really think what i liked about the place and pen it down. but now i got on film the jetty and the hawker centre, so i'm just waiting for that before i do a scrapbook of some sort.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
