22122010
WEDNESDAY
00:09
STREET 81
TOAST-GIVING.
this year has been a tough year.
my life has changed completely, it is not even close to what i expected in January.
uploading the photos for cell Christmas party now, looking at them makes me feel real blessed.
that aside, i have been really busy this hols, that i forgot to appreciate or visit my old friends and allies along the way.
there also people i excluded out of my life, by accident of circumstance. i'm really sorry, but i will try my best to find the time to reconnect with you. just hope i remember how to.
i need to say some things before the year ends, because i need to empty me of my thoughts before God can fill me with His. i need to apologise to a few people, need to make amends, need to correct my bad habits.
some things that are said, cannot be unsaid. some, when the time to say them passes, must be kept till death. yet for others, you must watch out for the second time you are given.
you're now listening to my current songs, sung by yours truly. i know it sucks, but i can't bear to let others sing it for me. they're just to precious.
it's for the new year. goodbye everybody, and have fun, laughter, peace, love and joy. cheers.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
21122010
TUESDAY
19:48
STREET 81
OVERSEAS.
overseas calls are really, really expensive. i don't think i'll be able to pay mom back this month.but i guess you can say the call is indeed worth it. Good to know how HK's doing once in a while, say Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, that kind of thing. haha he has homework, i'm organising stuff that has nothing to do with studying.
Narnia - Voyage of the Dawn Treader was good, although only Jason, Joel and i turned up. oh well, you don't need that many people to watch a movie. Pastor William's song is the credit's song! LOL. but it was good, maybe like the first one, incredible message as always. actually comparable to the book too, even if the ending was slightly different.
up to 10 stamps on Beadspin today, that means i spent $100 there! half a month's worth of extra money on my business and gifts alone! blows my mind which of the things i do count as hobbies or life skills, cause i think i got to do away with those that cause me to spend to much. too bad i love photography that much, NOW that's a worthy hobby. :)
speaking of money, i really have to raise much, much more for the mission trip. it's not about whether i can afford it, but it's about helping the kids. i mean, i can save and pay, but that would defeat the purpose, which is to spread the word about these children in need, and let others help them through us.
**HI, IF YOU WANT TO DONATE EITHER MONEY OR THINGS (BAGS, CLOTHES, ANYTHING REALLY...), DROP ME AN EMAIL OR SMS! NO HELP IS TOO SMALL! THIS ENDS 25 DEC (CHRISTMAS) SO HURRY! :D**
hmm the "number status" thing on Facebook is going strong, just thought i'll post my impressions on people here! don't reveal yourself hor!
"respects sis. how do u handle so much objections(?) by the class all year long? hope u will have a smoother walk from here on. god bless :)"
"helloooooo (: i think you're a rly helpful and friendly person haha. and i find it amusing that we manage to learn new stuff about you almost every time, like about stuff you've done or places you've been haha (((((((((((:"
okay that's all before i go overboard. but i did quite a few people's and what i say surprises even me.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
17122010
FRIDAY
18:16
STREET 81
PAINFUL LESSONS.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
looking back at this year, especially back on my family, i realised i had to lose a lot to gain character and climb to where i am now. it's like looking down at both the height you have just scaled but also cringing at the carnage.
most of the times, when i neglect God, and use my own weak intelligence, it messed up, big time.
but i guess you can smile and say it's all over now.
oh and Merry Christmas :)
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
13122010
MONDAY
12:48
STREET 81
WRITTEN IN THE STARS.
just finished a Stephen King book - Desperation - one of his best works. it's an old copy, went for $2 at the flea market, and i couldn't resist. it was going for an insanely low price for something so spectacular, so the book ended up with me. still looking for Sidney Sheldon - When Tomorrow Comes - can't find it anywhere, even in the National library.
just back from camp, super cool and super fun,but also super inspiring. the theme song for the camp was Carrie Underwood "There's a place for us", used in Narnia 3. here's the chorus:
We can be the kings and queens of
anything if we believe.
It’s written in the stars that shine above,
A world where you and I belong,
where faith and love will keep us strong,
Exactly who we are is just enough
Yes there’s a place for us,
there’s a place for us.
it's lyrics are meaningful and motivating, with one of the best messages ever. it talks about believing in yourself that you can be anything you believe you can become, simply because in the Bible, God said he would bless us.
Genesis 26:4-
"I will make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and will give them all these lands, and through your offspring all nations on earth will be blessed."
got to know awesome people at the camp too, MEGACONFUSION! love that game. probably the only one I'm good at, i think, but it was because of the company. having been blessed in the camp, i hope to go on and bless others in the upcoming Christmas Magic and Batam Mission Trip, through my acts of service.
oh, and i finally got a clear call with HK to catch up on his holidays and help him with his science projects. he just changed school again, he has a ton of homework and pretty much all new friends. just hope talking to him will help him know he still has friends here in Singapore that he can reach any time he needs a ear. he's quite interested in church and why i'm so involved in it, i pray he'll be saved this Christmas when he goes to church with his friends for the first time.
**THE BLOGSHOP IS STILL OPEN! PICTURES WILL GO UP ON 15 DEC, WHEN MY NEW CAMERA COMES IN!**
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♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
0122010
WEDNESDAY
23:59
STREET 81
ABOUT TO LEAVE.
i can't please everyone. i can't chase away the nightmares. why?
i feel guilty for neglecting this place. but i'm back people.
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post:life has been very busy lately, getting along surprising well with my classmates that i never thought i would. cell's great, going on a mission trip on 26 Dec too.
but sometimes i get this small nagging feeling of loneliness at night. i don't know, but i do know praying does help a little. it makes you feel less lonely i guess.
i once read somewhere - "those who can't stand to be alone by themselves are pathetic. it's kind of sad to need people all the time." in a way, that's true; you have to be strong by yourself too. you can't always rely on others, because you don't know whether they will forever stand by you. it may not be their fault but by circumstance. the things you hold fast may change relentlessly, your world as you know it may one day fall to pieces in front of your eyes.
but now, i guess needing some one sometimes is nothing to be ashamed of. standing alone by yourself all the time is tiring, and you need someone to cover your blind side while you rest, or just to fight the enemy together. you can't one-on-all all the time, you need teamwork too. you need heartfelt friends, and you'll always have God beside you.
will you stand by me if i ask? is it too late?
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
