12082010
THURSDAY
21:20
STREET 81
DECEMBER PLANS.
yeah, my December and November plans.
November first, then.
~ to work at the clinic for a full two weeks, or somewhere I've worked before for at least half a month to really see what it's like.
~ to save up to $200 for at least a month. this is for me to practice self-control.
~ learn level 2 street cha cha. i want to learn the dance seriously, out of passion more than anything else.
~ clean up my wardrobe and let my hair grow. gotta stick to one look i like, the old me.
~ get clean pictures of Changi Village and the Kellong for keepsakes, and to put all my pictures into a professional portfolio.
~ Learn sign language, and watch four more movies to finish my 10 movie list.
December's list:
~ one oversea trip, outside of Malaysia, possibly the mission trip with cell group. or diving at Thailand! MUST MUST.
~ participate in next year's Chingay parade as a performer!
~ learn sign language. $60, start saving.
~ earn $250 from jobs or tuition.
~ give blood. i want to save three people before i end the year.
~ give Joey, Rachel and Chrystal Christmas presents from my own money.
~ pick HK at the airport, no matter how late, or I'll never forgive myself. and then show him Tampines and Bedok all over again, before eating at Changi Village. then we go do what ever he wants to for 3 days. and i HAVE got to drag him to church. it may be my only chance. THIS ONE IS THE ABSOLUTE. I HAVE TO DO THIS.
RANT
fuck you! yes I'm using strong language here! i don't want any of your bloody explanations, you can save them for yourself. what do you mean you're that way? hell yeah, you're that way cause you chose to be! it's always a conscious effort to be someone significant, but don't be someone infamous! you are worth so much more than that! don't do this to yourself! wake up! the deadline is near! people hang on because of you! don't give up! if you do, you will be shocked and regretful due to the number of people who follow your lead! never underestimate your influence, and use it for good. you never know when the next thing you say or do for good of others will save their life or mind.
ever feel so pent up you wanna punch something, anything in front of you?advice: don't cause it hurts you and it didn't do any good to anyone. plus the bruises stick around afterwards. try screaming (in your bedroom only!) or try exercise. NEVER cut or binge-eat, that's a vicious cycle.
but who am i to say that? i'm just waiting for December anyway.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
