28062010
MONDAY
19:31
BUS 293
ONE LAST FRIDAY.
it's one more Friday to the last youth day i will ever have.
it's like saying you're sixteen, grow up and get your life straight. with the last June holiday gone, and another exclusive holiday going soon, i feel really old among my cousins.
hmm if one thing can be certain, man there is going to be change, and it's sure to happen to everyone. Fraser's back at midnight today, and kenji has finally been recognised into 4CR again. we don't whether to be really happy they're back, cos it's like really weird, especially kenji's new "good boy" personality takes some time getting used to.
hengkang's coming over probably after the o-levels, cause that's his Australia holidays, and we can finally set time aside for him then. if he can i probably hope to get the barbecue finalised and planned into action, just the onions and the swastika people. not bad for a week or so of fun, we can even squeeze me flying to Australia into the schedule of fun.
Mmmmm, Great Ocean Road. sounds good.
one long post, though I'm getting off next stop, and my time on the wireless is really limited. got to finish the twilight movie so i can eventually write the review for him.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
12062010
SATURDAY
20:31
STREET 81
REALITY.
[Cobra Starship THE CITY IS AT WAR.]
Here's how it goes, it's about who you know
If you got money, you get in for free
Get on your knee's, if you wanna reach the top
The party never stops, never stops, don't stop, don't stop, no
Come on, stick around, we'll see how it ends
Get the money and run, meet me at the parking lot
Bang, bang, shoot 'em up, yeah
in a way those words are right.
there are people who are there because of the money and the fame. then again, there's alot of different people in the world.
thinking alot while wrapping dumplings alone, because so many things have happened lately.
i guessed i changed alot, even to my cell mates.
hengkang wanted to call today, just duty call i guess. but i told him to wait till monday, really dont have the time.
hmm, funny, he usually waits for me to ask him to call.
i should call him tonight.
found his primary six blog for him, hope he's well in australia.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
11062010
FRIDAY
20:05
STREET 81
REMEMBER.
[7/31/08]
"today, ran 2.4 and did 5 items... andand so high!!!
tat crap hengkang told a huge practical joke and told me tat i had 5 min to go to bus stop :@ i ran in 4.27 min there!!!"
[8/17/08]
"小时候，都会起床气得特别早，因为我每天都渴望看到太阳爷爷对着我笑。可是小孩子总是会长大的，而慢慢长大的我，起床时间越来越晚，只能从电视看到我以前能看到的太阳。想一想，这并不难。
来到了学校，可能那天特别早，我就拉了恒康（他还没有去做duty），到中正胡旁边看太阳身起来。敏宜还迷迷糊糊的，还没睡醒。
突然，太阳神起来了。我们三个人睁大眼睛，被眼前的一幕迷着了。坐在草地上的我们默默地望着太阳，直到闪闪的阳光让我们不能不转睛。
太阳，你今天见过他了吗？"
[08/13/09]
"+hengkang
erm, just to begin, i want to apologise.
i want o say sorry, in the simplest of words, for letting rumours destroy our friendship. i cared too much about what people thought and shunned you as a result. i knew that as a friend, i made alot of promises, but i didnt keep them. i remember promising you and mon hsien a pair of movie tickets for the help in maths, but i forgot and then took it for granted. i also promised to turn up for lots of other stuff, but i didnt keep them, and i'm sorry. i realised how much i demanded and how little i gave for our friendship, when you left for Melbourne, and so many things in school that happened as a result of what i did showed up. so i'm sorry, and i know that you dont blame me, and that we will still be the best pals around.
now i want to thank you. thanks for not blaming me and for putting up with my airs.
wishing you all the best, and have a great start in life in Melbourne."
i was looking through all my old posts.
i'm really tired of the life we have now, the running away and the covering up. trying to talk to someone who isnt part of your life any more is not only tiring, but kind of crazy. imagine, he's a continent away in another totally different place with a different life.
i dont know if i'm doing the right thing waiting.
i'm sorry, no picture today too. i'm just not in the mood.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
10062010
THURSDAY
19:20
STREET 81
LAST CHANCE.
今天的主题：《最后一次机会》
今天，是你两年前去澳洲的日期。这两年来，我们彼此发了十几个电邮， 信也写了不少封。每次遇到事情，你都会发短讯问我的意见。
但是当我看到你做的事情，你到底有没有把我的话当真？如果你根本不在意我的话，何必问我的意见？
我真想不通，两年了，你根本变一下也没有。我可能太天真了，以为你会为我而改变。不变也不怪，你现在在澳洲可潇洒呢，而我是在那么遥远的新加坡。
我们可能没有哪个做夫妻的缘分。两年，我们哄彼此也该够久了。我很累，相信你也和我一样累。
就这么最后一次吧。
like i've said, i'm really tired.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
08062010
TUESDAY
15:08
STREET 81
BETTER OFF.
dumpling festival.
when i was small, i thought everyone celebrated this way.
in primary school, i learnt that what we did was special. it was kind of a forgotten tradition, albeit a precious one.
secondary school, and i have learnt to treasure this tradition.
po asked me yesterday night to write down the recipes. she's scared she will forget how to do the dumplings one day.
it's scary to think that one day i will do the dumplings without po.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
03062010
THURSDAY
09:59
CCHMS
NINE-THIRTY.
today i woke up to the sound of scubbing. po was washing the bamboo leaves for the dumplings. that started the count down to the festival just one month away.
this iswhat i have been waiting for every year.
but this year is different. this year i will be able to do my own bunch and flavour of dumplings.
i'm just scared i will have nothing to show po once the season is over. she has waited one year too many for this day. if i had a choice i would be at home, separating salted eggs and frying the sticky rice.
i wish i had more time than now, in school, feeling that school is the biggest waste of talent and time.
but i promise myself that i will rush home as quickly as possible to help her.
she doesnt have long to teach me everything she knows, and i'm afraid i cant learn fast enough. yong says he can, but yong has started late, and he is not hardworking. he is not willing to pick the eggshells, to mince the meat by hand. he is simply lazy. for that i am sure.
which means that po's cooking is one step away from beinglost forever. even dayi zhang is saturated with the recipes from his own mother. not even my maternal uncles, the great chefs, are able to cook such simple fare so well.
i wish i had more time.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
