little piece of heaven on earth.

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26052010
WEDNESDAY
19:35
STREET 81
DULL ACHE.

June six is hengkang's birthday. it marks one year since he's been gone, and I've just been letting it eat at me.

he misses this place terribly, but he knows it is not for him to decide when he can come back.

i kept thinking at first, what kind of dad would do that to his only son, to just send him away.

then i realised that's how he got to Singapore in the first place.

but i know that no foreign father would like to see his son serve NS while he could be studying somewhere prestigious. I'm just glad hengkang doesn't blame him any more.

never mind me, I've just been thinking too much.

a reply to Xiaoyee's comment in the sidebar -

yes it still bugs me, because that one trip did open the world suddenly for me. in Thailand, i saw all the sights someone as young as me couldn't have at such a young age, but i gave up something i trained for ten months to get it. it wasn't easy to say yes to the trip, but i know the experience i have gained is more precious than the regret i feel sometimes. it was my choice in the end,and i wouldn't have wished so differently, even a second time round.

it just feels good to get something off my chest, after so long.

another totally different thing.

I saw Daryl today.

i know we're over, and i have no right to interfere in his business.

but i also know he has cleaned up his act, he has become more wiser.

i fight to tell myself that everything can wait, until i finish school. if he is right, God will send him again.

i fought real hard, and I'm tired.

maybe it's just as well that mom wants to move, and the move will help keep things off our minds.

i dont think i'll put a picture today.

♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.