22032010
MONDAY
20:53
SHE CANT CRY ANYMORE.
it's true. i cant cry anymore. i may feel sad, but those salty, bitter tears wont ever appear on my face anymore.
i've got what mom has: dysfunctional tear ducts. Uncle Doctor told me that i'll he little control over my tear ducts, so i'll probably have alot of tearing,or totally dry eyes. and that there's no cure. i'll probably never be able to cry again, not at a touching moment, not at someone's funeral. never.
i've been avoiding this blog over the few days, since the news. i look over all my old posts, and i see my sad times, the times when i just started in sec1, the times hengkang and everyone was falling out, the time when 3ep came into being by one of God's plans. i look at the sad times, the happy ones, and i feel like crying, so much like crying. in my heart iwas screaming hell, i was choking up, but my eyes juat remained dry. the most painful feeling was burning my eyes, but i couldnt let go of a single tear.
totally dried up.
forever.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
