♪♥♫ THE STARS LEAN DOWN TO KISS YOU. ♪♥♫
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SATURDAY
STREET 81
DEEP COLD SAPPHIRE.
i really need to move on.i don't know if its the lack of sleep or bad dreams. but i guess you can say both.
i went to the
Singapore Sports School today. it was a fulfilling experience, and sure i got 20 dollars and CIP points, but i guess the one thing i could take back is not what they had to offer when signed up.
i guess the real thing i took back was that people can see who you really are no matter how much you fake.
i was in the control room of the swim events today, so i guess i worked with alot of the people actually running the thing. they're are all older, some 20plus (HI TILLYSON), others 40 over (HI NORMAN AND AUNDREA!), but i guess that they all said i looked pretty tired.coming from people older i guess is their way of asking is everything all right, cos they didnt mean sleep, they meant like "
dear, is everything all right? you need time out?" for people i've never met before in my entire life, its like another wake up call.
met Tiffany from 2BN! she's a nice buddy, and quite chatty too. so the five of us: Norman - our IC, Tillyson - our welfare IC, Aundrea - Water Polo IC and running IC, me and Tiffany, were constantly cracking up the whole of the control room. did stuff like sort out medals and paste, copy results, plus got to see how the meet is run in logistics, announcements, planning. really hectic at times, but i had a blast of a time. i convinced myself i was really happy,until i got onto 969 at Woodlands interchange.
then i started to cry.
i dont know how i started, or the real reason why. but i do know that during the meet i saw faces that reminded me of everyone that i wanted to avoid. i kept noticing people who looked like Daryl, people like Basil, some of the China guys looked really like Hengkang. Especially the three of them because i went swimming and Wild Wild Wet with Daryl alot of times, Basil once, Hengkang bedok swimming complex a couple.
its like life just threw back at me all the problems i left it. to deal with, and i'm just taking it back all at one go. and i think i was staggering under the weight.
but maybe i've just got to deal with them before life decides for me again.
some photos of the school:







