12032010
FRIDAY
12:40
SWEET POISON
funny, how testing for poison used to be so simple. the tester would roll the drink or food in the mouth, and if a thin, dry, bitter taste was detected, it was deemed unfit.
now, poison sometimes is so sweet, so slow, that you could have consumed it for 5 months then find out you're dying in two weeks.
and some poisons dont kill you, they just maim you enough to be dysfunctional.
and maybe it's poison i'm having right now.
keep having this feeling that the class is just like a piece of rice paper, any drop of doubt, or stress, will easily tear the fabric of harmony. it is so thin right now, that you thread more carefully on it than a tight rope. and people are still chipping out the edges, sanding them, making it even thinner.
in fact you could say i was walking on a newly sharpened knife blade. with every step i slice my own flesh, and blood flows anew. and with every step the knife cuts deeper, and the tendons and nerves are lost, until finally i lose my whole leg or life.
losing a leg can be like losing a good friend. losing my life, well the whole class ends on a bad note with each other.
i should think carefully before i walk.
ok, happier things. :)
i've got to reach CCHMS at 7am for this singapore sports school swimming meet, and apparently they give you $10 for each session. i do two sessions, so that'll be $20 bucks.
really trying to save money, cos i realized i've been spending too much lately. so i hope that tomorrow God will bless everything to go well and that mom does not kill me before i put in my $20.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
