05032010
FRIDAY
MRT TO TANJONG PAGAR
BEFORE THE WORST
he sent me the same song i've been listening to for the past week.
before the worst - the script together with lyrics. guess what he highlighted?
yeah:
Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong
no prizes for correct guesses, and i guess it's plain why he sent the song. i know it's very clear between us now, but i guess he's going through the same thing as i am.
realizing i've been very selfish, expecting him to give alot when we were together, and now expecting him to just recover too after the breakup. guessing both of us not gonna be normal for a while, huh?
the shop uncle told me that Daryl's probably going to move to a rented flat somewhere in the north part of Tampines. i told the uncle to ask Daryl to stay, because he's still going to St Hilda's, and moving to the north will mean space, yes, but he will have to wake up real early to go school. and believe me, he cannot, simply because he's used to waking up half an hour before bell rings than making the 500m walk ten minutes before flagraising.
and i should stop remembering these small details about him. it will only keep replaying if i still remember.
just like that jesse macartney song IT'S OVER, where he tries to erase his girlfriend from his mind but still fails even with the machine.
i guess no level of technology can replace humanity. that's what makes us human, and why forgetfulness is so scorned. it's like living the time out, but the time ts wasted. like i said, i dont regret the memories, just that the memories have turned sour now. and it takes sweet in my mouth, and bitter in my stomach.
i hope God will finish playing the movie quickly and then turn the damn auto-replay off.
it's killing me.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
