21:00
THURSDAY
felt really sad today, everything everyone says seems to trigger a wave of memories:of Daryl and me, scenes where i goofed up along my life, and lots of them just repeated in my head. the broken promises and empty phrases.
worst part is i tell myself to let go, because they we said with an intent to be fufilled, but when i break off from everything,even it's most beautiful, innocent moments become filled with poison and and bitterness. it got so bad that i cried during AMaths, not that i let them see, but i couldnt talk or even look up. it's so heavy on my heart.
nowadays, school is just a morphine from my from the mind-wandering at home.
i don't know how to stop myself saying yes. i practice in the mirror to say NO and... once i look at my classmates i go "yeah, sure, ok,.." like i just can't. so i ended up with a ivan's chinese homework: a compo, journal entry and lesson review.
SHARON YOU JUST GOT TO BE MORE HARD ON IVAN TO START SAYING NO TO HIS PLEAS FOR HELP. you gotta let him know that it's sec 4 and there's something called cope youself. so do your work, big guy. and sharon, really learn to SAY NO.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
