18:39
MONDAY
just got my chinese results today. weird enough, didnt care if i did badly, and B3 is good enough for me.
it feels so long when i was interested in chinese. i'm sick of what my teachers have to say about my mother tongue now. just feeling that normal chinese will be good enough for me to go poly, because that's all i want to do right now. i cannot imagine myself in endless book torture in JC. can you?
spent a good half hour just sitting alone at the staircase of 824, and watching Jingjing go about her daily business. feels likei'm small and unobtrusive again, where i can block out all the noice i want in my head. used something i do for the stage:
clear your mind. think about Jesus. feel Him inside you, talking to you and pay attention to Him. then refeclt upon His goodness and face. after you do this and realize that God is excited and anxious for you too, you will be ready to face anything.
thank you God for letting me find a selfless way to do my thing in public, in Gkida, even talking to friends and strangers in school. feelings like i'm samll again, and you are always there, shielding me from the harmful effects of the world. i know that you are always there, but i have pushed you away. SORRY GOD.
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
