10:59
SATURDAY
bathing soon to go out for study group then the DE training run. just LOVE MY CELLIES. PTL for them, they make the best of my week.
Daryl called on my handphone today, he said he wanted to say sorry for the awkardness or the hurt or how i have to keep shunning him... it's not your fault, and i am not responsible for answering you anything again. i need to get my self fixed and running in the race, i really havent time for you, because all of it is God's now.
feeling very emotional today, wondering if i'llbe able to act like the old sharon again. i have one thing on my mind though: i really have to find a way to get minyi and daryl and weifeng and hengkang andd mon hsien and zuo lun... just everyone i care about to come to church so i can show how good God can be in their life. because i see them empty and aimlessly wandering, i feel really sad for them. i cried to Jesus for them, then Jesus said:
i cried for Lazarus and Mary and Martha. i cried for everyone on the cross. i cried for you too, so that you would not have to cry, and that you could be happy. now that you have found me, tell others how to find me, or they will still be alone. and in all things tell them i love them for me, that they mean something to me when they feel their lives are messed-up by the world.
crying for my friends really helped me see jesus' view. it allowed me toreally feel that id dint deserve the love but i got it and i want to really share it to my friends. i'm just wondering how.
oh ya, and went out to eat with XIAO YEE to eat jap and then sit at TCC for a tea/chat. really great, so i want to thank her for being able to pull time o reconnect (cos we're like drifting apart, but still close though) and all the advice that i find really USEFUL. so this small song is dedicated to you and will record it before CNY though (i hope.)
we're falling apart
we're drifting slowly further
we're not making time
we'r keeping from each other
and we find it hard
to smile again
and we're trying not to lose it all
CHORUS
and we're givng up
but i know its not to late
to pray about
what we've become
and we're trying hard
but i know that
God will hear us out
and he works in wonderous ways
his own wonderous ways
for us
♥ I'VE GOT HEAVEN ON THE INSIDE OF ME.
peace and joy God has set me free.
peace and joy God has set me free.
